The past couple of days have been.. probably the hardest days I can remember. I don't even know what to write on here for people to see. I think I'm probably at the lowest point right now. I just gotta be strong and have faith that things will be better soon.. I feel like I'm in a really bad dream.. and I just can't seem to wake up. But I remember having a massive headache yesterday, so I know that's not the case haha. Good ol' sunday headaches! :( You really do have to prepare yourself for the worst thing to happen. Cuz when that moment comes and you're not ready, it hurts that much more. I wish I could just go off and tell exactly how I feel in detail, but I don't think I should since this is an open blog. Now, I have to get back into the social pool and try and be happy as much as I can. I didn't think I would have to get back out there.. ever. But, here I am. On the bright side, I really got a bigger picture yesterday on how much people care for me and are here for me. So that's comforting. I will admit, I did miss hanging out with my girls and going crazy with them. That's something I haven't gotten enough of for a long time. I'm trying really hard to be positive right now. It's hard, but it's a bit easier today than it was yesterday. I just gotta stay busy.
Anyways, I got my wisdom teeth out last week. It really wasn't that bad. I was pretty scared about it since my last experience was so bad. But this time, I had the owner of the dentists office do it and he gave me laughing gas. So, that was nice. I don't remember feeling like I wanted to laugh at all though. I'm not sure why they call it that. I just felt high. I felt like I was going to pass out at one point, but it was great. Haha now I understand why people get high. Although, I would never be that stupid to do it. I'm almost all the way healed now too. I've gotten through the hard parts. I've just gotta hang in there, and I am. So, if anyone wants to hang out with me.. I have even more free time now. I'm trying really hard to be positive. Haha I prettymuch just sound desperate, but I don't care I guess. I'm still trying to sell my car too, so if anyone wants to buy it, that would be great!
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