Friday, August 12, 2011

Life is full of ups and downs.. kind of like on a heart rate machine. I'm at the point where that line that just went down is turning up.. and up. Who knows if itll be a tall peak.. or just a little bump to keep me going. I feel good about where I'm at in my life and I'm excited for what's in store for me. I'm most excited to see where i'm going to end up in the next year. Things change SO fast and who knows what will happen.. even in a week! You just have to stick it out and see what's in store for you or else you'll never know.

Life's full of surprises!

I kind of realized somethings recently. One, being that it's ok to want things for yourself.. but you aren't going to receive them until you are ready for them. And sometimes we are going to get impatient and want it now. I realised that some things that i know i want (at some point) i don't even want right now in my life. It's funny.. we get in this big rush to get what we want for ourselves sometimes. And it can be understandable.. i mean, you want to get it when you have a chance to get it. When it looks like it's in reach.. you try SO hard to get it so you don't miss that opportunity. There are going to be stepping stones to get you to where you want to be. I was hiking with some of my friends to ASU mountain not too long ago and i was talking to my friend Karlie about this. I know this probably sounds cheesy.. but we were walking and it was a workout! We were so sore and so tired by the end. There were more flat parts on the mountain and so you could kind of stop and look how far you have come. I kept on saying how at certain points, i didn't care to keep going and that i was satisfied with where i had reached on the mountain.. and it was too far to go to the top. Karlie, being the good example that she is, pointed out how the climb to the top of the mountain was like our journey to be back with our heavenly father. The climb was really hard at times and then we got to stop and look at the view of all the city lights at resting points.. kind of like a preview of what we will be able to see if we press forward to the top. Both of us were wearing sandals that were really not good for hiking on rocks. The shoes kind of ressemble the holy ghost. It protects you from things that will hurt you or can potentially scar you. And there was a railing along the pathway that you could hold onto.. which is kind of like a testimony. Hold onto it and make sure your grip is TIGHT or it will be hard to keep your balance and you could potentially fall. We eventually reached the top after a hot and tiring hike. The top of the mountain was windy and so pretty.. looking at all the lights at the top of the mountain. If we would have given up and not kept on going to the top of the mountain, we wouldn't have understood how much was really in store for us to enjoy.

This picture is of my friend Scott Dinsdale (Some may know him as Paperclip). I know that may have been pretty cheesy, but it was a good night. And I'm so happy i have friends that i can have these moments with and that we can talk about stuff like that and not have it be weird or anything. To be able to feel the spirit on just a normal day basis with a group of friends is awesome! I love my friends so much. If you're reading this.. i love you all SO much.. more than you know!

Now, on to specifics..

There are types of people who don't really like relationships.. and then there are the types who always feel like they have to have a relationship. The boyfriend/girlfriend type people. I'm that type. It really blows a lot of the time because you end up getting excited about relationships when they start out.. and then they fail. So it's hard when you get let down. But recently, I've gotten to the point where I don't care anymore. Right now, I'm just living my life and enjoying what I have with my friends. I'll never get these days back and I want to look back on them and smile. I want to look back and have no regrets. So, here I go. I'm opening a new page.. and things are going to be great.. things are going to be different. I'm focusing on my friends.. and improving myself. We'll see how this goes!