Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Welp, I've definately been slacking with my blogging responsibilities. So, I'll do my best to catch you up! It has been 4 months since I've written in here.. and wow, things have changed! Haha I've gone through a couple relationships since then.. story of my life. Haha I recently started working at Great Clips this month. That was going well..until today. Ha yeah, I lost my job today. They want me to take more cutting classes and then come back when I have more experience. As fun as hair cutting is.. I think I would much rather have a stable houred full time office job. That way I have a set pay and no working nights. That is something I did not miss from working at Matta's. I liked working at Matta's.. don't get me wrong. I just didn't like getting off work and then the whole day was gone. That sucked. That's something that I liked working at Overson Roofing. Which, by the way, I never explained what happened there. I worked there for 9 months. From February- November 2011. It was a nice job.. I liked it a lot. The only reason they let me go is because the business slowed down too much that they didn't need 2 receptionists.. and since Summer had been working there longer.. I was the first to go. :( But it kind of worked out well though because I had been thinking about how I wanted to find a higher paying office job that included benefits. So.. I looked for that, but didn't have any luck. That's when I started applying at salons. So, then Great Clips came and went.. and here I am. I'm not sure what'll be next. My boss at Great Clips said that she would help me find cutting classes for me to take. So I THINK she really did want me to work there. She just had gotten hired as manager though.. So her job was on the line as well since she hired me. My mom wonders if they had hired me looking to just get help for the holiday season thinking that they might be getting busier and they needed more help with customers. Then when the holidays just ended, they decided to let me go. But I'm not sure what the intentions were.. I just know that I wish I had better hours anyways and so I'm looking elsewhere. But anyway, yep.. that's my job dealio.

Ha, well.. let's see.. Halloween, Thanksgiving, AND Christmas have passed since I have updated this thing! I'll start with Halloween. Halloween was good. It was an interesting time of my life.. that's for sure. I literally just got out of a relationship the week of halloween.. so I just decided that that weekend.. that i would go

with my friends the the halloween hanger party. I went last year too and it was pretty fun.. so I figured I'd check it out again since I didn't have a boyfriend to hang out with.

Last year, I dressed up last year as a zebra.. THAT was interesting.

Haha this year.. I was a pirate for the Halloween hanger party. I think that was on a Friday.. so the next night was more Halloween stuff. I dressed up the next day as batwoman. It turned out to be a pretty fun weekend! I feel like that happens to me a lot. Right after I get out of a relationship, that following weekend.. or even night.. is SO fun. Haha I don't really understand it, but I'm definitely ok with it. So yep..

Then thanksgiving was pretty fun. It was just fun with the family.. nothing to crazy or anything to talk about. Just food and family stuff! You know. The Thursday before thanksgiving.. I did end up buying something pretty awesome. I almost got one a few months ago... but never did. So, anyways I finally did.. a sugar glider! Her name is Stella. She's pretty cute and fun! She is now like maybe 8 months old. She is way crazy! She's cute and cuddly during the day.. just sleeps in my jacket pocket. But then at night, she acts like a squirrel! She has all the energy you can imagine! But ya, she's an interesting pet, that's for sure.
Since Thanksgiving, I have just been dating and hanging out prettymuch.

Friday, August 12, 2011

Life is full of ups and downs.. kind of like on a heart rate machine. I'm at the point where that line that just went down is turning up.. and up. Who knows if itll be a tall peak.. or just a little bump to keep me going. I feel good about where I'm at in my life and I'm excited for what's in store for me. I'm most excited to see where i'm going to end up in the next year. Things change SO fast and who knows what will happen.. even in a week! You just have to stick it out and see what's in store for you or else you'll never know.

Life's full of surprises!

I kind of realized somethings recently. One, being that it's ok to want things for yourself.. but you aren't going to receive them until you are ready for them. And sometimes we are going to get impatient and want it now. I realised that some things that i know i want (at some point) i don't even want right now in my life. It's funny.. we get in this big rush to get what we want for ourselves sometimes. And it can be understandable.. i mean, you want to get it when you have a chance to get it. When it looks like it's in reach.. you try SO hard to get it so you don't miss that opportunity. There are going to be stepping stones to get you to where you want to be. I was hiking with some of my friends to ASU mountain not too long ago and i was talking to my friend Karlie about this. I know this probably sounds cheesy.. but we were walking and it was a workout! We were so sore and so tired by the end. There were more flat parts on the mountain and so you could kind of stop and look how far you have come. I kept on saying how at certain points, i didn't care to keep going and that i was satisfied with where i had reached on the mountain.. and it was too far to go to the top. Karlie, being the good example that she is, pointed out how the climb to the top of the mountain was like our journey to be back with our heavenly father. The climb was really hard at times and then we got to stop and look at the view of all the city lights at resting points.. kind of like a preview of what we will be able to see if we press forward to the top. Both of us were wearing sandals that were really not good for hiking on rocks. The shoes kind of ressemble the holy ghost. It protects you from things that will hurt you or can potentially scar you. And there was a railing along the pathway that you could hold onto.. which is kind of like a testimony. Hold onto it and make sure your grip is TIGHT or it will be hard to keep your balance and you could potentially fall. We eventually reached the top after a hot and tiring hike. The top of the mountain was windy and so pretty.. looking at all the lights at the top of the mountain. If we would have given up and not kept on going to the top of the mountain, we wouldn't have understood how much was really in store for us to enjoy.

This picture is of my friend Scott Dinsdale (Some may know him as Paperclip). I know that may have been pretty cheesy, but it was a good night. And I'm so happy i have friends that i can have these moments with and that we can talk about stuff like that and not have it be weird or anything. To be able to feel the spirit on just a normal day basis with a group of friends is awesome! I love my friends so much. If you're reading this.. i love you all SO much.. more than you know!

Now, on to specifics..

There are types of people who don't really like relationships.. and then there are the types who always feel like they have to have a relationship. The boyfriend/girlfriend type people. I'm that type. It really blows a lot of the time because you end up getting excited about relationships when they start out.. and then they fail. So it's hard when you get let down. But recently, I've gotten to the point where I don't care anymore. Right now, I'm just living my life and enjoying what I have with my friends. I'll never get these days back and I want to look back on them and smile. I want to look back and have no regrets. So, here I go. I'm opening a new page.. and things are going to be great.. things are going to be different. I'm focusing on my friends.. and improving myself. We'll see how this goes!

Saturday June 18, 2011

What's new? Hmm... not a whole lot. I just finished up with a co-ed softball season this week! Ya, our team wasn't exactly what I would call a winning team.. but it was way fun! I'd definately do it again next year if I have a chance. I finally started getting my sound system in my car together! I got the deck in.. now i just gotta get the rest installed. AND hopefully I'll get my anberlin sticker too! Im way excited! Oh, speaking of my car.. I definately could've died yesterday. The past week, my dad noticed that something was leaking from my car. So when he looked at it, he came to the conclusion that my radiator was leaking coolant. So I had planned to get a mechanic to look at it while i was at work yesterday. I called him up and he said that he wouldn't be able to get to it until monday. I happened to get off early that day from work and then when I got home, my dad said that there was a mechanic that he knows that works out of his house that said we could bring it over right then. So we took it over there. Literally RIGHT as i parked my car in his driveway, coolant started pouring all over the cement! So when we looked inside to see where it was leaking from, the housing to the radiator had completely come off. It was still inside the car, but basically just sitting there. If i had driven my car very much longer, it would've definately overheated and who knows how bad that would have been! I pulled into his driveway at the PERFECT time. Any later.. wouldn't have been good! One thing that was retarded and made no sense to me at all.. was that the housing was PLASTIC! WHY would anyone in the right mind make something like that out of plastic.. when it gets hot under the hood.. especially in AZ. Sheesh.. some people! Anyway, the mechanic told us that we could go buy the part for it and then he would put it in for us. So.. $65 later.. we brought it back over and he put it in for us for $30 bucks! Not too bad.. or so I would think? Now my car is running normal. But that definately could've had a bad outcome. I guess I'm suppose to be alive for something!

So recently.. I've come to the realization that I'm misunderstood way too often by probably 98% of people I care about. I never realised it up until this point. I mean, there are always going to be disagreements and people may not understand why you support or believe a certain thing, but honestly.. i never realised how much people don't understand me. That probably sounds just like any other teenager out there, but I'm serious! Like even a lot of people that i'm close to dont understand me. As time goes on, it just becomes more and more clear. I think there are probably less than five people who actually understand me and agree with me on most things. Everyone's different and nobody is going to agree with you 100% percent of the time, but it seems like more times than not.. I'm misunderstood.
I don't know, maybe I just have more growing up to do in that area of my life.. but I'm me and that's not going to change. I'm far from perfect.. and I don't try to be perfect. But, sometimes I wonder if it's me or everyone else. I have these moments where I just shut everyone out. I don't know if there is anything that ever triggers it.. or if it's just a mood that I get in. I HATE it. At those times.. I become so uncomfortable with being myself around people that aren't familliar to me. I don't know how to fix it and make it so that doesn't happen. Another thing.. through all the trials that I have been through in my life.. I always expect the worst out of anything and everyone. The moment when I let my guard down.. something or someone just proves to me that I shouldn't have expected it to go like I would like it to. So ya, I'm a very very VERY big pessimist. I guess thats just WHAT HAPPENS. When I look back, I wouldn't take back ANYTHING that has happened to me. None of the crap people have given me.. put me through.. and most definately wouldn't take back the happy memories. There is so much that I've gained through those hard times and so much I've taught myself and others. I think I'm most close to the people who have hurt me the most. I feel the most comfortable around them too.. why? I have NO idea. It doesn't make a whole lot of sense. It's like.. here, here's someone who lost your trust.. be yourself and let your walls down so they can hurt you some more! Haha I mean.. I can't think of a time when that has happened.. but it seems like that should happen.. right?
Anyway.. until next time..

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Alright, just to reassure anyone who actually reads my blog.. my life is not as depressing as my last post sounds! haha definately wasn't having a good day though! I wont talk about it because that was a very angry post. haha and this one isn't going to be that way!
Recently, I finished up working at Matta's this last week. So now I'm working one full time job and have my nights off! It's so nice having time to do the things I need to do now! I actually get to ride my horse now! It's a nice thing! Also, I'm going to start doing more hair and nails for people... SO if you need anything, let me know! There are some toe nail examples! I'll add more if i get more soon! I can do prettymuch anything with hair. So yup, let me know!

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Well, you really do learn new things every day! I'm not going to go into specifics.. but I'm sure if you are reading this.. you know who you are. I'm someone who doesn't fully open up to people very quickly. I've always known why.. but right when I decide to give someone the benefit of the doubt.. I get smacked in the face. It's definately going to be hard to let loose in the future. It doesn't seem like it'd be that hard.. but it's scary! You never really can be too sure about anyone. The question is.. when is it ok to fully trust someone? I thought I knew.. but nope!

Nobody is real anymore. I don't really understand why anyone would feel good about being fake. Are you really that afraid to be yourself that you have to pretend to be this selfish person who doesn't actually exist? Too ashamed of your real self? I don't get it. Just freaking be yourself.. no one else can. Bah.. people piss me off.

Anyone wanna be real with me out there? For those friends and family that I have that are real, thank you so much. There need to be more people like you out there. Either that or I just suck at finding real people. I don't know, whatever it is.. I need help with it.

My theory proves itself once again.
Mmk life.. lets step it up and be cool.. k thanks.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Ok, so maybe things do turn around! I finally got a car! It's the cutest thing ever! And it's pretty good on gas too! On the last tank, i got about 28 mpg. And that is with my teenage driving! It's a 2005 chevy aveo. Basically when i was looking for a car forever, I got to the point where I was not picky about what car i got at all. All I cared about was that i could get my saddle into it somehow. A while before that, I wanted a cute little girly car. And what do ya know? I got one! I always looked on craigslist for cars but never found anything good that i could afford. Then when I was "working" one day, I had already been looking at cars and even this type of car and hadn't found anything worth looking at. Then i just randomly decided to go look at aveos one more time. It was the first one on the list like it had just been posted. Since I was working at the time I found it so I texted my dad and told him that we better hurry and go check it out because it was a good deal. So, my dad did while i had to work and i ended up getting it! I only paid like $4500 for it. And it has low miles too. Ah I just love it! I'm very happy with it.. no problems yet. I got it like a month ago maybe. It's only like $40 to fill up the whole tank.. right now. So, ya I'm definately saving more money driving this than i was a truck.

Other than the car, I've just been working a lot. Hanging out a lot. Life's good. :)

Friday, February 11th, 2011

So, recently I got a new job! I put in my two weeks at Skipro and then I'll be a receptionist for a roofing company! So that'll be nice cuz they pay better and it would be full time. One thing that is going to be interesting is that I'm going to try and keep my matta's job! So, i will be working somewhere between 55 and 60 hours a week. Yup, its going to be super busy, but we'll see how it goes!

I am in fact STILL looking for a car. Its actually getting pretty frustrating because I don't have very much to spend right now and so everything that i can afford is either old.. ugly.. or has a ton of miles. I wouldn't be in such a hurry to buy a car if my family hadn't sold the truck that i've been driving. Ya, i dont exactly have a stable means of transportation anymore.. until i get a car. I would just get a loan from the bank and then go get whatever i want BUT that requires a cosigner since i don't have any credit history.. and with this lovely economy of ours, prettymuch NOBODY can cosign! Its pretty irritating. I would much rather wait and save up my money and buy something that I actually want rather than buy something thats just ok and then regret it. Another thing that makes it that much more hard is craigslist ads freaking suck and there are so many scams its insane.. and more than half of the posts are by dealerships.. which I've been trying to avoid since they have so many other fees that come along with buying a car.

Boys currently sorta make me mad. Not that they haven't before.. its actually nothing new! If something doesn't change here pretty quick, I'm going to begin wondering if its me that has a problem.. or the boys are just ridiculous in this state. Ha, yeah.. you could say that i need to get out... at least for a vacation. It's definately been a while. But, by the time this summer rolls around.. i'll have a bit more spending money and then i can hopefully take that vacation that i need oh so very badly.

Basically.. its the story of my life right now. Work.. and finding a car. That basically sums it up.. with some time with friends here and there. Welp, i guess that sums up whats up and new with me lately.. until next time (whenever that is).. we'll see what changes.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Wow its weird to write 2011. Four years ago to this day, I bought my horse, Rhazja! Anyway, what's new with me? Well.. I haven't posted a update on here for over two months so I figured it was time. So much has changed since then too. Some things, I'd rather not write on here for the public to see. I've definately been working a lot. I've actually been saving to buy a car. The truck I drive isn't the most fuel efficient thing out there, so I'm tryin to find something for a good deal that's not too old.. with low miles. All the money I've earned from working... will be gone. Yep, but its alright. After that, I'm SAVING my money. I've been spending a lot within the last month or so. Umm.. I don't really know what else is new. Last night was new years eve! It was a pretty fun night. I ended up going to the Chandler Air Service Hangar party with a few of my friends. It was pretty fun!